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Eh???

WOW, it was the 7th week...after next week, HOLIDAY come!!

Again, I was thinking of what should I do during the holiday.

Prepare for the next posting (O & G - the most busiest posting and possibly will get many humiliations). OMG

Polish up my surgery knowledge? The thing I read always came in and went out from my brain.

Go somewhere to play? I think I should put this aside, big probability I will just stay at home.

Online for that whole week? Manga, facebook, pps, dramas *_*

Eat as much home-cook meals as I can? Yummy, but how about my diet plan?

What should I do?????
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有点发花痴的感觉

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A lonely night

I was alone tonight. So, here I am, blabbering a while about my daily lives.

Wake up,
Go to hospital,
Go to library,
Go back,
Study,
Sleep..zzzzz...

A day passed.

Wake up,
Go to hospital,
Go to library,
Go back,
Study,
Sleep..zzzzz....

Another day passed...

This had been my 5th week in Surgery posting. Time sure flies, and I had been doing the same things over and over again...zzzz...need entertainment sometimes. But, Cheras here seems so isolated from entertainment...zzzz...

By the way, I'd made a few accomplishments ^^
(i) Remove suture
(ii) Did every venipuncture successfully
(iii) Practice a lot on my presentation skills
(iv) Digital per rectal examination
(v) Observe many surgeries

These are fun..I'm getting use to this boring life. Ok, its time to go study...zzzz...

Oops
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OMG~The prettiest and the most handsome in my heart..


Kim Tae Hae

Kim Hyun Joong
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其实

其实,
我是个怕寂寞的女生,
比一人困在房间里,
我比较喜欢在有人的地方,
我很敏感,也很容易胡思乱想,
喜欢想些有的没的,
有时我觉得这样的自己还真的是过得很辛苦,
我常常让自己很忙碌,
这样我会感觉自己过得充实,也比较有意义,
但是在忙碌中却有时会遭遇到不开心的事。

当夜深人静时,
当我回到房间时,
那些感觉全部都来,
觉得寂寞,空虚,
我好想出去看看这个世界,
好想去接触更多新的事件,
来填上我内心里的空虚。


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To: Myself

For these past few weeks, you have been:

Being independent,
Being strong-willed,
Being diligent,
Being responsible,
Being punctual,
Being able to stand loneliness,
Being empathetic,
Being thick-faced,
Being humble.

Go on...keep these up. You're doing well.

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Holding hands



Whenever I saw senior couple holding hands side by side on the street,
I had a strange feeling. Feeling sweet? Feeling envious? Feeling impossible?
Deep down my heart, I hope that my future can be like that too :D

1

HATE

I hate logbook:

A blue book,
with not so pretty pictures.

A stupid book,
with stupid content.

A bad book,
that cause me so sad.

3

Again, I am looking forward to meet you

I'm looking forward for Christmas.
For its peace,
For its love,
For its comfort,
For its sincerity,
For its hope,
For its forgiveness.

I am touched whenever I hear this song. This song: "We are the reason".


P/s: Kindly pause the song of this webpage while watching this video.
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Waterbirth


I came across a video in Youtube about waterbirth. It is amazing. So, I did some reading from the net about waterbirth.

Simply, the mommy gives birth to the baby in warm water (similar to intrauterine environment), without assistant from the others. Mommy will pull out the baby with her own arms, and the process of giving birth is less painful. Cool~!

The determination and courage of a woman is great. Going through 10 months of carrying the child in the womb and the pain of giving birth. Guys, you really should love your wife.

Waterbirth profoundly demonstrates that a woman is empowered by "giving birth," not "being delivered" (Waterbirth International)

For more info, "click here"

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I'm serious! (Am I?)

It's time to diet. When I reached home, my mum kept calling me "ah bui" (fatty). I felt want to go on a diet plan instantly, but after a while, I forgot about it.

After sometimes, my mum called me "ah bui" again, then my desire to lose weight SPARKED out again, and then after sometimes, it died out.

"Ah bui wen"

(I want to go jogging later!)

...

...

"Ah bui wen"

(I'm serious this time, I'll skip my dinner!)

...

...

Errmm...
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Something strange happen to me~


Yesterday, I reached my sweet home. I slept on my sweet bed. I used my sweet blanket. Nothing is more comfortable than these..:)

I had a lot of dreams that night. But, I couldn't remember any of them now. But, something funny and strange happened. I woke up lying on the other side of the bed (90 degrees from my original position). Did I have sleepwalking?

Hmm...what had happened to me?

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What Faith Can Do

Yup, have faith. This is such an inspiring song:

Everybody falls sometimes
Gotta find a strength to rise
From the ashes and make a new beginning
Anyone can feel the ache
You think its more that you can take
But you are stronger, stronger than you know
Don't you give up now
The sun will soon be shining
You gotta face the clouds
To find the silver lining

I've seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn't ever end
Even when the sky is falling
And I've seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That's what faith can do

It doesn't matter what you've heard
Impossible is not a word
It's just a reason for a someone not to try
Everybody's scared to death
When they decide to take that step
Out on the water
It'll be alright
Life is so much more
Than what you eyes are seeing
You will find your way
If you keep believing

Overcome the odds
You don't have a chance
When the world says you can't
It'll tell you that you can!

~Kutless~


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Post-exam

At last, I finished my exam yesterday. That was such an agonizing process for me. Process of going through the exam. Now, I leave everything to GOD. I'd done my best and He'll do the rest.

I went to Sg. Wang and Times Square with Felicia. She waited for me to go shopping together, though she already finished her exam on Monday. What a nice friend..^.^ It had been a long time since the last time we spent our time together.


Honey roasted chicken. (Me) Yummy.


My lunch and me.



OMG. This was SOO special. Seafood fried rice. (Felicia)


Felicia with her balanced food. :)

One for you, one for me...so thirsty...

This was such a nice day. Looking forward to went out together again next time ;)


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Suffocating


I wanna get out of here, as fast as possible.
I don't like it here, really.
I don't like it's people, place, food, anything...
I wanna back home...


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我知道错了




要是这次考不过的话,我并不意外。我知道自己不够努力,考试时又紧张到重要的步骤都忘了。 回想起来我的Internal Medicine posting, 真的是过得很烂,也不适应。那个不知道,这个不知道。要是考不过的话,我也有了心里准备。

我知道,我不可以气馁,我要振作,再站起来,不可以再犯同样的错误。我知道自己错在哪里,还有哪里需要改进。星期三和星期四还有考试,有可能我已经是注定考不过的了,但是,剩下的这两张考卷,还是尽力做到最好吧。是时候比别人更努力了。但是,我好事希望不用重考。

笨蛋,要加油。



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Be Brave


I'm not afraid of "you",
I'm going to conquer "you" tomorrow!!!
Hope that I will not make a fool of myself...


Dear Father, please protect, and give me courage and wisdom to go through the test tomorrow..



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This morning


I woke up this morning full with burdens in my head.

EXAMS

LIES

LOGBOOK



Matthew 11:28
Come to me, all you are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.


0

SHIT


This is really a shit world.

INJUSTICE everywhere.

Why I have to live here?



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Home


I'm away from KL, a stressful and fraudulent place.

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越来越空虚



每个礼拜,我都去教堂,还以为自己很虔诚。
牧师,第一次看到我新来的,
会来认识认识,
第二次,第三次,第四次,就没了。

去唱唱歌,听听讲道,
不管那时我多么地感受到上帝的存在,
出了教堂,却又忘了一干二净。
还是继续着这个讨厌的人生。

去,回,去,回,就是这样重复着。
教堂里一大堆兄弟姐妹,
但是他们都有了自己的圈子,
别的人,都不重要了。

我,不管去了多少次,
也只是个过路人。

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"Happiness"-actually it's simple

My friends and I saw a patient with recurrent epilepsy this evening. We approached him and try to clerk him. He was a small man, who seemed excited about everything. These were some of the funny conversations we had.

Us: Uncle, pagi!! Kami pelajar perubatan.....(bla bla)
Uncle: PAGI!!!
Us: Uncle umur berapa sudah?
Uncle: 28 (Actually, he was 48..XD)
Us: Uncle kenapa masuk hospital, sakit apa?
Uncle: JANTUNG! (but he showed us his hand-we thought it was his hand that had problem)
Us: Uncle boleh cakap satu ayat tak? Seperti: "Nama saya Lee X X."
Uncle: Lee X X!
Us: Uncle, kata "Nama saya Lee X X."
Uncle: LEE X X!!

His brain had not been functioning well. Sometimes, he understood us, sometimes, he didn't. He talked what he like. His wife was beside her. She answered our questions for him. She was strong...Although her husband was in bad condition, she still smiled along when she answered our questions. While answering us, sometimes she would turn to her husband and talked to him. Not understanding what his wife told him, he just smiled back at her. That smile was pure and sincere, and I could not see it anywhere on other people.

Why?

We had been shaped-up and veiled by the burdens and worries in this world, until...we had forgotten on how to be truly happy.

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我在“负”中...

人在倒霉的时候啊,真的是特别的倒霉。
昨晚,肚子又特别地痛,痛到哭了起来。
我就拿起了一粒Ranitidine吞下去,希望会有帮助。
感谢主,肚子慢慢地不会痛了。
现在的我,终于明白胃痛病人的痛苦和害怕。

倒霉的事情还没完,当我想要睡觉时,竟然停电了。
虽然没风扇,但是我实在是很累了,就这样躺下去睡。
如果是之前的我,肯定是睡不着。

唉,幸运天使,健康天使,你们都去哪里了?

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I want to be a good doctor

This afternoon, I went to klinik warga to see a doctor. The clinic was supposed to be opened at 2pm, but it opened at 2.15pm. I knew it was not too late, but for me, it was a suffering. Bearing the pain, I waited patiently outside.

Okay, it was opened then. But, the clerk at the registration counter had not arrived. There were so many patients already waiting for registration. Okay, then she came, slowly, leisurely. My flame of anger started to spark off.

After taking the waiting number, I found a chair to sit, feeling extremely tired. Again, it
was another long waiting. I felt frustrated with waiting, and I open a mini game in my handphone to play with. I bet the doctor was still chatting inside the room. I felt wanna burst inside the room and asked: "Hey, I am suffering here?"

At last, the bell rang. It was my turn. When I went into the room, my first glance laid on two people (doctor and nurse), chit-chatting as they didn't realize there were so many patients waiting desperately to be treated.

My chief complain was epigastric pain, but I was told to check for my full blood count (whether I was anaemic-she said I looked pale. Pleaselah, I always seem pale. Furthermore, I did not have enough sleep yesterday. I was tired) and check for thyroid function test (Hmm...I doubted this. My tremor can be benign essential tremor, and my fast pulse rate can be because I was ill mah...). Besides, she asked me to review the test result one week later. Wow, need took so long time? By that time, I had recoverd.

To take the blood, I was told to go to Medical Ward 2. The doctor there seems SOO busy. It was 3.15pm. He asked me to wait until 5 o'clock (OMG, are you serious? Venipuncture won't take you so much time k, you wanted me to wait for you ah? I was sooo tired already).

So, I go find my friends to do it for me. My vein was poked 2 times, and unfortunately, both of them failed. And....my hands nearly suffered from ischaemia due to long duration of torniquette. I saw my hands went blue, I was a little shocked that time, and asked them to release the torniquette. Although failed, I felt really grateful to them because they were willing to help me.

I went to Medical Ward 5, and spotted a few seniors. I asked them to help me. They were so willing to help :') He poked my vein confidently, and the blood..whoa la la...came out swiftly and smoothly. Oh my blood~at last you want to come out already ya? It was already 430pm by that time.

I went back to Medical Ward 2 to pass the 2 vials of blood to the doctor there just now. But what I saw is another doctor. The doctor who just now asked me to wait for him, had went back???? (他妈的)....What an arrogant doctor! Nevermind nevermind, I know you were superiorly up there and I was inferiorly down here.

After all this hustle and bustle, I went back. What a moody day. I was really tired today, and my back ached again. Oh Health, please come back to me T_T

I was not in good mood while writing this post. So many harsh words come out =_= Sick people always like this de la~















1st attempt: failed, but less painful.
2nd attempt: failed, painful~haematoma some more.
3rd attempt: successful! So touched at the moment when the blood came out.



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Stomachache

It was really a scary experience last night. I woke up during the night due to stomachache. This was the 1st time I had it, and I felt scared.

I swallowed 3 tablets of gastric pain medications, drank a cup of nespray, and put a bottle of warm water on my painful stomach.

I tried to sleep, hugging that bottle of warm bottle. I fall asleep after a while, but then I woke up again. The bottle was not warm anymore, and my stomach started to feel painful again.

Feeling weak, I poured in warm water into the bottle again, and try to sleep. I fall asleep again, until I woke up this morning.

I wanted to see a doctor (sob sob)...



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感谢祂

我觉得自己还满厉害的,
每次当我难过得要死时,
到后来都会恢复起来,
再次振作起来。

这几天,
䑮在房间里,
跟祂哭诉,
真的很庆幸有祂。

开了很久没听的教堂歌,
觉得。。。
非常。。。
非常,的安慰。

这不是第一次了,
祂总是不离不泣地陪着我,
让我不孤单,
在黑暗里看到了曙光。

祂每次都让我深深地感动,
如此地温暖,
那种感觉,
真的很难用言语来表达。

感谢天父,
你这个女儿,
真的是永远都长不大。



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It's raining



It's been a hard day,
I need someone to be there for me,
but it seems there's no one i can turn to,
I feel...so alone.
I feel like want hide somewhere and sleep,
so that I don't have to feel and think.


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Can I?

I came across this quote accidentally.

"Just as a Vet is expected to love animals, a Physician must have inherent love for humans and humanity."

Can I?

...

...

To be honest,

I had not been feeling any "inherent love" for humans,

except those of really close ones.

Bad sign right?
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我读啊读,读啊读。。。。。。

“一寸光阴一寸金,寸金难买寸光阴”
(我的名句精华不错嘛 XD)

再一个月就要考试了,
是时候认真读书了,
不可以再一直玩facebook了,
不可以一直追连续剧了,
不可以再无所事事了,
不可以再懒惰了,
把握时间,加油!


矣,可爱。。
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This year mid-autumn festival...


This is a wonderful night...
Calm,
Without layers on the cloud,
With a little gentle breeze.

It is a lovely night...
The moonlight shines on me,
Tip askew in the sky,
Like a clear mirror.

Chang Er,
Do you miss your loved ones?
I know you do,
Because I DO.


Yummy, I LOVE those moon cakes!


Pretty fishy right?


Somewhere in Leisure Mall Cheras.


中秋节快乐!!



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Headache?

I was ill for the last three days...

My symptoms were as below:
1) Headache with Grade 7/10
2) Fever
3) Chills
4) Neck stiffness *_*
5) Malaise

I was thinking of myself having meningitis because of having neck stiffness. OMGG...Do I get it from the hospital? I tried Kernig's sign and Brudzinski's signs on myself. Pheww, they were negative.

Lazy to do anything, I slept and slept.

Getting better the next day with new symptom of dry cough, I think I was just having a flu. No big deal. XD


P/S:
  • I think the Baby Kumar should include flu in the list of "causes of headache".
  • Sleep is really a good cure for flu~

This cat looks funny..-W- (meow)


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七仔

心情有些郁闷,就画了这个可爱的七仔。当我画好它时,我的心情变有些好去。
0

I feel....old


Why am I feeling old?
I feel like life has been long...

When I look at the teens and babies,
I feel old...

When I look at my old toys,
I feel old...

I don't have wrinkles or gray hairs or anything,
I don't have kids either...

I'm fit and healthy,
but why am I feeling old?

Maybe because I'm not doing enough with my life?
Anybody else feeling old?



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Self-reflection


Today, I quarreled with brother.

Me: low level of patience + bad attitude -->

Brother: low level of patience + anger flared up IN A SUDDEN ==>

"Cat and dog on the scene" (Quarrel)

LOL!!!

Lastly: reconciliation + self-reflection of both

Sigh, when we're young, we quarreled, when we grew up, we still quarrel.

Yet, after each quarrel, things go on as usual as we never had a bad quarrel before.

P/S: Brother really do care about me ^^


Today, it was my attitude that sparked out this quarrel. Hmm, I need to control my temper. And, I think he also need to control his. LOL...


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Guilt

I thought I had done three venipunctures successfully today. Two of the patients suffered from dengue, whereas the other one is having infective endocarditis.

But in the end of the day, I realized that I had done one of the venipuncture wrongly. I punctured an ARTERY...

I really need to be careful next time.

Sigh...



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Can't Wait

I can't wait to go back home.
Sarikei, do you miss me?




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Life...

A kepo friend asked me to update my blog, so here I am...lol

Walking around in the wards for this past one week,
Made me value life more.
I felt sadness in my heart when I see these sick and injured patients.
Seeing them suffering and lying alone in the bed,
I am reminded of how fragile life is.

I am fortunate that...
I can walk around,
I can talk,
I can see,
I am loved,
and I have them beside me.

I want to...
Enjoy a good meal,
Appreciate every moment as a gift from God,
Wear clothes that speak of joy, not sorrow,
Wash my face,
Brush my hair,
Iron my shirt,
Look sharp,
Put a smile on my face,
Don't be a grumpy girl,
Savor every little moment I spend with loved ones.


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Fireflies..at last

A long long time ago bedtime stories were filled with fantasies, flying horses; mischievous pixies; dainty fairies; and powerful wizards.

I had been hoping to see a place full of fireflies since young. That night, my dream was fulfilled, at Firefly Park Resort, Bukit Belimbing, Kuala Selangor. This place is famous for its local folks' little fairies (fireflies).

On a boat, off we go. As our boat making its way through the swamp, I felt really excited.

And...ah, there they are! Millions of little green lights twinkled in the shadows of the night. They rest on the mangrove tree (pokok berembang) beside the swamp, like a twinkling Christmas tree.

They are so pretty and adorable. I felt as if I was in a fairytale world.

We are not allowed to take photos, but, I can remember the scene vividly in my mind, forever.

I appreciate and love this trip~♥





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烤猪脚

在这四天,我们在 Kg. Pasir Panjang 进行了一个调查。

每天早上,我都是逼着自己从暖暖的被窝起来,因为要早早去那个村庄。

在太阳底下,我们走路去到每一间家进行访问。很多家,我们不能访问到所有住在那个家的人,他们不是没空啦,就是不在家。所以呢,有的家我们去了三四次。真是不容易啊~~

六点多的时候,我们才身心疲倦地回到宿舍。

今天呢,我看到了整片金黄色的稻田,大自然的美真是奇妙。但是呢,我们今天也走得特别多,因为在那里的屋子每间都隔得好远好远,在路途上看到的都是稻田,很少屋子。

在今天的中午,我们的调查正式结束。我们不算功德圆满 (目标是600间家,却只访问到350间家)。虽然失望,但是大家都尽力了。

我的国语说得越来越流顺了,因为都在访问马来村民,而且我量血压的技巧也磨练到很好了也~ 在这次的活动,我学习到原来做调查真是难啊。 。。呜呜~


我的烤猪脚,像斑马一样。

漂亮的天空。^_^




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Nightmare, go away

Panic
Fear
Tears
Heart pumping fast
Oh~Nightmare, please go away!

Illusions
Hallucinations
It's not real
Fake
Oh~Nightmare, please go away!

Calm down
Pray
Don't be afraid
You're awake now
Oh~Nightmare, please go away!
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In Love With Seafood

We went for a dinner at Jeram, in quest for yummy, mouth-watering, tasty, and delicious SEAFOOD!!! :P''

4 girls, friends forever~


We chose seafood together=)

The sand between our toes. The gentle sea-breeze whipping at our cheeks. The moment with beloved friends.

Although it is quite a long journey to Jeram, it is definitely worth a trip.

I LOVE THIS DINNER, SATISFIED^_^




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欢迎来我们的家,贝贝。。。

今天我家来了个新的小成员^^

贝贝,你好。

竟然跟我webcam时候睡着-_-zzz

谢谢妈妈把她的可爱相拍给我,嘻嘻。

希望你在我们家可以开心;健康长大;陪陪妈妈,爸爸,和皮皮;等你长大来保护我的家。



 
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